I spend a lot of my day encouraging Charis to be obedient to me, asking her to look at me and asking her to listen to me. Recently the Lord has shown me that this is how He spends His days with me as well. I constantly feel that God is calling me to my family. I am a little slow to really pick up on this and follow through but I am slowly accepting it. When Charis was first born I spent a lot of my time in wonderful and good activities outside our home just filling my schedule which meant less time with Charis. Recently I have found myself just constantly searching for some wonderful place or thing or even person to invest my time in. I have spent a lot of time praying and talking with friends about what God might have for me (where does He want to use me). I am really slow sometimes but I just really feel His call to my dear husband and our sweet kiddos. I am called right now to be His light to the kids even at their tender ages. I think that this is hard for me because the Christian world says that I need to be out doing and conquering souls for Him. I am still called to this as it is the great commission but I am just called to it on a different scale…I am to be His salt and light in my home. I am slowly accepting this and truly trying to work on it with the kids and just loving them well. I am looking for ways to come along side Brad more and bring encouragement into his days as well. I want to be obedient to where God is calling me but being obedient is sometimes hard. I have a great reminder in my day though as every time I ask Charis to be obedient I hear the Lord calling me to obedience as well.